Who Am I (Part I)

Who am I?

I am a human, a creation, created by the Creator. What am I doing here? And, really? am I really a human, and does it really true, that I am created? Not just popped up randomly from my mum womb? Ofcourse not. Now what do I believe in, what did I see? So many questions that actually a bit late to ask now. but it’s never too late to start neither continue.

They said, I am actually a “paradise resident”. But maybe non-permanent, since Adam. Why? Well, I am thinking of story of Adam and way long before he was born. It all makes sense, actually, but the questions and doubts and forgetness just kept on distracting. So, in short, all creations live happily ever, even jinn. But once, Allah announced that He will create the best creation, human, Adam. But jinn refused Adam, envy him so much. Adam lived with Hawa in paradise, forbidden to eat a fruit. But jinn lure Adam to disobey Allah. Adam did. Allah is The All-Knowing, then Adam and Hawa repent, but then Allah told Adam to stay in dunya with his later ummah, promised afterlife he and his righteous ummah will go back to paradise, and cursed jinn to be forever in hell. Jinn swore that he would lure as many humans as he could to join him in hell. And there we are, created in soul, put in a body from soil in dunya. The thing is, to do what Allah asks us to do, and prevent his prohibition, just like Adam. Eventhough we slip, we can repent, just like Adam. And we will go back to our home paradise, just like Adam. So, we are the sons of Adam.

Remember. It’s not that simple, but it ain’t that difficult too. Life is simply doing the best we can to go back home, yet the enemy is there also. The enemy, jinn, will only be strong, if we are weak. Allah knows we will be able to fight, even become the best over all creations He ever made. But it also up to us, because we are given free will. Yes, both we and jinn have free will, we can decide whether we want to go back home, or join the jinn in hell. So bcak to the question, who am I? Well, I am not just “a creation”.

I am a noble creation, but nothing without Allah. I am a great human, but nothing without Allah. I am different from jinn, but can even similar to them, or worse. Wallahualam. At least now I am self aware of who am I. Noticing my existence to acknoledge Allah’s existence. Regardless in the end, what will I become; ummah of Adam entering paradise or joining barricade of jinn toward hell. It’s up to my free will, I decide, and the battle started.