Reliving Hijra

Once you have tasted what Hijra feels like. You will crave for it again. Yet, it is not that easy.

I’ve been following the steps of misguided, who put me in this situation. Little by little, his steps just made me fall further, until I did the same things as I was before Hijra. That I could never think of. Like, you don’t expect it to be like this. But it happened. It is scary. Not the bad guy. Instead, how unstable we are without firm grip. But again, it all their plans all along. I must be smarter than them. In the end, they couldn’t do anything, the just whisper. And that’s the real battle.

Imagine yourself, having enemies. It could be an old annoying friend. Or your ex’s ex. Or anyone who you hate just too much. There could be a reason behind it, or there isn’t. But you know exactly, you don’t like these people. Even worse, you want to destroy them. You want them to suffer. You want them to feel pain eternally, for maybe what they did to you, or other reason. This bad guy hates us-human- soooo much. It hates Adam As, Prophet Muhammad, everyone, us included. And it alread made a promise that it will misguide us into hellfire, with hardwork and long time patience. It started make a long-term plan, short-term plan, plan A, B, C, strategical. All kind of plans. Only to ensure that we ended up in hellfire.

Then, what about us? Why do we make such a big fuss about hating our own brothers and sisters? While actually, the rel thing is, the one who causes the fight is this bad guy. It is the plan. To make us hate humans, while actually, all bad deeds came from who? The bad guy. They whisper, the allure you to do bad things. You are a good and noble person. You are lovely and pure. But this guy can’t just leave you alone. It just can’t. It is so pious, that it kept its own promise. Always.

Reliving hijra means, going back to the awareness of the real enemy. T uncover their evil strategical plans all these times. It’s all blame to the bad guy. We just need to fight. Yes, it’s even running in our own blood vessel, still this body and soul belongs to The Greatest. We just need to make ourselves aware “again” now, so that there will be somekind of motivation to pray again, to be pius again, to do good again, to be dilligent again, to live again.